Ménage à deux (a dialogue in pieces) by Benne van der Velde published on Double Dutch magazine!
Preface:
“And he never again did. Talk to me. Since 2001… Why, hi there! Between 1998 and 2001 Benne penned down 5000+ pages of internal dialogue. To be able to do that he wrote 10 pages per day, every day aboard the Ferry where he worked at the time, and, somehow, came up with me: Erik. Erik Ergo. Nice to meet you, I’m sure. For the last couple of years he’s been fiddling with it practically non-stop, and, if nothing else, he hopes we pieced together a result that reads like a fucking bullet train and does justice to what stuck with him the most after reworking a selection of about 500 pages from those 5000+ into the volume in front of you. The amount of energy committed to just about anything he set his mind to at the time. How we drove each other onward, relentlessly, and often made things so much harder than needed or healthy in the process. But in hindsight, talk is cheap. Even a shit load of it. We talked ourselves into some unnecessary and often easily avoidable frenzies, and he himself into a serious mental breakdown by the end of us, in the French Pyrenees. But boy oh boys, we sure were alive! For the rhythm, getting more than lost in The Process, stumbling in, and out, and back in love, an obsession with a certain French connection, friends and family, and yes, for the sex, those fucking drugs and an emerging career as a poet. You don’t have to like us from back then, or even sympathize. Wholesome we were most certainly not, nor always in tune to the blistering heat we radiated. For those negatively affected, sorry about that…? We tried so, so hard. Being unbearably young and much, much too beautiful. It was a trip. 29 trips a day, every work day, to be more accurate. In your face, unapologetically hardcore and yet, at the same time, completely vulnerable. Imperial, butt naked Odysseys across some Dutch river. With, after all these years, this unique ego/slice of life and Zeitgeist document to show for it. A love story like no other we know of. So, if nothing else we guess there’s that, at least.”
